I was thinking back to my teenage years. I was 5'6, 127 lbs. My measurements were 36-27-38. Nice right? I thought so and so did countless others. The most I used to hear about my looks being bad were the fact I could have worn some makeup. I used to get a little bit of an ego lift by walking across the street and having truckers whistle at me. I know pretty shallow, but I was a 16 year old who had it all. I loved myself. I was smart, popular, and sexy. What else do you need?
Well, when I was 17 I met a boy. He was everything I thought I wanted. He was the missing peice to my almost complete puzzle. I was very naive. I got pregnant a few months later, married him almost a year later and settled down to have a happy homelife.
Five years, and two children later, the bliss was gone, and so was my perfect figure. I also found out that my "perfect" husband also wanted to keep the perfect wife. As I gained more weight, my husband started to call me very hurtful names. The more he belittled me, the more I turned to food for comfort, therefore packing on more weight. I had gotten to 225 pounds when I realized the damage it was causing to my whole life. During the years, I also had an ulcer, gall bladder surgery, and skin cancer. I survived all of those fortunately, but my weight still remiained. It was the bane of my existence. I became obsessive. I refused to eat until I was so ravenous I ate the whole fridge when I did succumb. I tried over 20 diet/weight loss plans out there and nothing seemed to work. What 20 pounds I would lose I would soon gain back twice as much. What had happened to the healthy,happy perfectly fit person I had once been?

I had lost my self esteem, my drive, my love. I was mad at life, myself, and my husband. I had the wrong frame of mind. You cannot create anything positive when the negative is all encompassing. It was time for a change. And it started with my attitude. First thing was to get rid of all negative influences in my life (thus now an ex husband).Second was to make a list of all the positives in my life. The people, the things I love to do to keep me from being distracted, my attributes. I created five positive affirmations I began to practice saying to myself in the mirror every morning before work. And a little prayer.
Then came the study of exercise programs, healthy diets that don't starve you, and my reward system. When I didn't lose any weight for a couple months, I still rewarded myself with a small token(a new book, a new blouse, ornaments for the house),because I was staying consistent and not losing faith, and still not gaining more weight either. I have not reached my goal yet. But I am loving myself more every day and the positive attitude I have is showing up in every thing I do in my daily life. It took me years to gain my weight. I am okay with the fact it will take years(and even more now than before since I am over 30 and it gets harder),because I have come to realize it is all in the attitude. That song that Pink sings I believe is a great theme song. "I love myself today, not like yesterday." The past is gone, the future is still to be made. We are in the present! And every day is a chance to either write another page, or start another chapter in your life. Make it a best seller that everyone talks about! That means doing the best that you can to be the best of who you are! Live long and live strong!

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